Dear Journal,
... i did skry for more of Attentus' past, and i learned as follows.
After his vision and return to society, Attentus was still in deep emotional pain.
Ruri's Heartstone blessed with love protected him from Vrock Demon, who started to avoid Attentus - but torment was still in his heart.
Later Attentus learned that Vrock hid in the Depths below Gypsy Camp's broken earth, where shadows served him.
It took years of compassion practice by Attentus, before the demon was fully defeated by Attentus, however.
Years passed, Attentus fled from life and engaged himself in Arcane Pursuits of Spellweaver Keep, advancing in ranks until he became Overseer, then the Leader, the Keeper.
When new mage appeared in the area, Attentus greeted her or him, showed and explained Spellweaver Keep, and sought romances from attractive witches.
But he couldn't find anyone whom he could love until he met Wethrillina Aeliath.
A witch banished from Norwick by a high-ranked Norwick Militia, a Barbarian named Uthger. They made her leave with swords bared, and torches in hands.
Attentus met her, and they cautiously exchanged their life stories, as time passed, as meetings came.
Both wicked and cautious, they both attempted seduction, tried to entrap other one under them.
Both fell in each other's traps, this romance could not be otherwise.
Attentus was still scared of revealing his emotions to Wethrillina, fearing that he will be left after showing that 'weakness' - but it was him who had to make first step, as he was a male.
Attentus arranged for revoking the banishment, as the Head of the Spellweaver he had that power in Norwick, anyway.
Then during a Norwick Faire, Attentus' elven friend, Evelyth Miliatani, sang a song that encouraged him to let woman have upper hand, to 'let her under his skin, then to begin to make it better'.
He offered his heart to Wethrillina Aeliath and she accepted his love - they started to be a couple, and even kissed each other passionately at fair's end.
Attentus torments were supressed by the new love, powerful, beautiful and true.
... i'll leave the nicer details for next time, Dear Journal.
-- Yours, Chea Allin, a Witch & a Seeker of Enlightened Energies.
-=- Wethrillina Aeliath. -=-
-=- except that being a Witch of the Unseelie Fey, she had a light-blue skin. -=-
-=- ... a heaven's caress. -=-