Tuesday, 13 March 2018


Dear Journal,

What is Dragon?

Dragon is symbol of Fear, therefore any monster, even human monsters, are dragons in a way.

As one defeats dragon - either internal or external - one becomes a dragon as well, in a way.

... is it a defeat?

When one defeats a dragon to protect, because of love - one's loved ones offer reconcillation, it's a victory not a loss.

By defeating Dragons, great treasures can be obtained - either in coin or at least in Wisdom, Power and other Non-material Values.

The greater dragon defeated, the greater treasures obtained.

Befriending, taming a dragon is also a victory, probably the best of a kind.

Befriended Dragons are powerful Protectors, they are symbols of Magick & Protection.

Myself, i struggle with Esoteric Dragon - the Challenges related with Spiritual Pursuits.

-- Yours, Chea Allin, a Witch & a Seeker of Enlightened Energies.

Sunday, 11 March 2018

Whispers Through the Black Gate.


... at the Peltarch's City Hall.

Dear Journal,

My fever still lingers, but i was able to contribute to the Sharran Bandits investigation again.

We were briefed shortly in the Peltarch City Hall by a Guard Sargeant, then headed to Cerulean HQ.

There our Priestess, Ute Snow, called spirits of the dead bandits we had corpses of.

They were questioned across the Veil between Worlds of Living & Worlds of Dead ... at Selûne's prayer's grace.

One of them was a priest by name of Klinton, other a mage by hard to remember elven name.

Both 'served shadows', following Shar's Church orders, engaging into banditry in attempt to gain coin.

Their leader 'has no name', they operate 'everywhere' with no permanent base of operations.

Not much was revealed, but we were able to confirm that the bandits follow Shar.

By our detective, Roslyn Underhill's initiative, these two will be raised from death for further interrogation.

-- Yours, Chea Allin, a Cerulean Star 2nd.

a Cast.

Friday, 23 February 2018

Elements & Symbolism.

-=- Brazier-Fire & Rain-Water. -=-

Terrible thing happened since i wrote in You, Dear Journal.

Lady Elisa Horgath was murdered, while i was struck with severe fever.

Cerulean Investigation stalled with me being ill, then murder happened - in Ashald's Park.

... but i try to not think about this, to not drag myself into despair - in such state i won't be of help to anyone, anyway.

Dear Journal,

Tonight had enough of strength to sit at Mermaid's Patio and ponder about Elements.

Attentus' main element was Air, associated with his Athamé, magickal tool for directing Arcane Energies, with Information, Communication & Masculine Thinking.

My main element is Water, associated with Intuition & Feminine Feelings.

These two elements are most important for us - and these form Mist together, holy spiritual form.

Dear Journal, as i sat by Mermaid tonight, i've experienced Fire from nearby brazier & Rain-Water from the skies mostly.

Together these form Steam, a masculine-feminine feelings couple.

Earth & Air is Dust together, a masculine-feminine thoughts couple ... and when one compares spiritual journey to the road, dust can be seen as experiences & wisdom accumulated during travels.

Water & Earth is Mud, feminine feelings & thoughts, swamp-mud conditions is where Lotus Flowers grow. Difficult conditions of the swamps are comparable to difficult youth many girls have, and Lotus Flowers reach Perfection & Beauty while growing in these. Lotus Flowers are symbols of feminine Perfect Qualities, and more.

The Four Elements are bound together with Spirit, that makes them holy, that makes them whole together.

... tonight i've played with these thoughts, pondering for use in my Art of Magick & in my Poetry.

... hopefully my illness will pass away soon and i can be useful once again.

-- Yours, Chea Allin, a Witch & a Seeker of Enlightened Energies.

-=- Distanced. -=-

Sunday, 11 February 2018

Skrying for Attentus' past, part 4.

Dear Journal,

... after a break i did continue to skry & pry, learning about Attentus' & Ruri's tragic romance.

On her trip East, Ruri was cursed by her enemy, she barely fled - or was allowed to flee, to suffer more.

It was a touch spell that landed on her left arm that at first did nothing, then resulted in paralysis & pain.

Attentus with Ruri tried Remove Curse spell, but the Curse was too potent.

Natural medicines didn't work either, and Ruri suffered more & more each day.

It was excruciating experience, the pain that Ruri felt, and Attentus suffered with her.

They had their love rekindled for a while that eased the pain at first, but after a time her personality was affected as well - she could not feel emotions, nor love.

Attentus in his desperation went to a secluded place in the Nars Pass, near a Brigands-built shack, and opened a portal to Hells despite his little skill in Magickal Ways.

Demons of Hells compensated for his little power, and completed the Portal-Opening, taking his invitation as their advantage toward this goal.

Portal to Gray Wastes opened, and Attentus had a glimpse at the Blood War, the War between Demons & Devils waged across the planes.

He saw Devils & Demons killing, blood spilled, screeching echoes as vultures & bird-like Demons fell from the Red Skies on lesser Baatezu.

One of the Bird-Demons, a Vrock detracted from it's course and passed through portal to face Attentus.

Bound by a Pentagram - Binding Rite, Vrock negotiated release terms with Attentus.

Attentus wished to learn about Ruri's curse & about a way to remove it.

The Vrock Demon told him that she was infected with Cursed Slaadi egg, and that she's transforming into extraplanar creature to be tormented in that form for Eternity.

Whether the words were true or not, Demon was released and Attentus ran back to Norwick, searching for Ruri.

Crying, out of breath he met her at the Spellweaver Keep's courtyard and did something that deeply hurt him for many decades of his future life.

He met her, she was transforming already - sinister energy field around her, bloody-sinew-menacing wings sprouting from her arms, her hands ending with claws, and burning-red-eyes looking at him with hatred.

He cried 'i am Sorry!!!' & shot Ruri with a Lightning Bolt spell, to kill her before transformation completes, to save her from fate worse than death.

Then he felt on courtyard's cobblestones, in pain & tears.

His friend Delawen, a mage-girl of Norwick, appeared and tried to comfort him - he yelled at her and fled from her presence. He wished no contact with anyone.

Living in seclusion of Rawlinswood, he was tormented by Vrock Demon who appeared again and again, Attentus' Lightning did nothing to harm him.

Attentus' magical power was just too weak.

He suffered desperation & emotional pain for weeks or more, then had a vision. Ruri appeared before him, dressed in a grey robe, surrounded by light.

She told him that she's still dead and now a 'Keeper of Afterlife', that she was spared from torments by Attentus' sacrifice.

She wanted to say goodbye, and to give him parting gift - a green-metal ring with floral ornamentation, made of her essence, that would protect him magically, and remind him that he always has a place in her heart. Ring was named 'Ruri's Heartstone'.

This was last time Attentus saw Ruri, his pain lessened, and he somewhat recovered after this ordeal.

His hair went Grey from shock & suffering he endured ... but he returned to Norwick & Society, continued his life.

Probably he continued to live only because Ruri wished him to live, even if living for someone is more difficult than dying.

... this concludes this scrying's part, Dear Journal - i do not know when i'll continue.

... i need to think & recollect, to ponder & meditate as well.

... i have Cerulean & Selunite chores too ... but eventually i'll find time.

-- Yours, Chea Allin, a Witch & a Seeker of Enlightened Energies.

-=- Attentus after his hair went Grey. -=-

Wednesday, 7 February 2018

Skrying for Attentus' past, Part 3.

-=- Campfire. -=-

Dear Journal,

... after a night's sleep, i woke up, went south to skry a campfire i mentioned earlier.

Next to campfire i could not find these energies i suspected ... confused started to ponder, then found answer.

Old Norwick was elsewhere.

After Ostromog's Bugbears destroyed Old Norwick, settlers rebuilt it to north, leaving Old Ruins behind.

Went south, visited a famed Norwick's Well, that during Attentus' times radiated wild magick.

... it turned out that under it were tunnels where one of the three Control Orbs was hidden.

... controlled telepathically these Orbs were keys to controlling Old Narfell's constructs & artifacts that still linger hidden in remote places of Narfell.

... these Orbs were dangerous to use, and radiated with wild magick.

Then i went south to Lake area, and found three Menhir Stones, by which old campfire was set-up.

These Menhirs were nodes in the Ley-Line Network studied by old Spellweaver Mage, Isaac Hamilton.

... cast skrying spell, did a rite and after a while thoughts & visions flooded my Thrid Eye Chakra, so i learned of the past.

Attentus was a village boy who heard voices of long-dead people, other villagers were scared & non-trusting him.

Then a Mage named Versutus visited village, charmed Attentus' parents, then bought the boy for gold - argumenting that boy will learn how to wield his Arcane Gift, so it's no longer a curse, that he'll have better future under Versutus' tutelage.

Attentus followed his new Master to his Tower next to Waterdeep ... where Master made him forget most of his past with a spell.

Training lasted 15 years, and for first 10 he had no contact with other people except for his Master & occasional tower-guests.

First 5 years were most taxing & dull - it was mostly cleaning laboratory & other chores for Master, as he was taught discipline, philosophy, diplomacy, languages, and other mundane abilities as well as meditation, he was prepared to awaken & wield his powers that way.

Then his Magick Awakened, and for the next 5 years he was taught Arcane Theories, spells & rituals, mostly.

Last 5 years were interresting - he interacted with other kids at his age, both boys & girls. They played together, competed, learned together - spent almost all of their free time together.

They used their spells irresponsibly, as with one play - when they charmed each other, and left with feelings hurt.

Attentus had a few of shallow romances during that time, but he didn't feel the True Love until he met Ruri Hasegawa later.

After 15 years of training, he passed a Test designed by his Master, proving he's worthy of the Mage title.

Soon after he left Versutus' Tower in search of Old Narfell Artifacts, to forge his promising future elsewhere.

Ruri Hasegawa came from the Eastern Land of Kara-Tur, from an Island of Kozakura where people had yellowish skin, angled eyes and different culture than the Western World.

She was raised in an Arcane School, where they were taught Shadow Magic & other skills.

One night her School was attacked by a Rival with his soldiers, almost everyone was massacred, buldings & sacred texts burned to the ashes.

Ruri fled West, to Norwick where she tried to mimic local customs.

Wary of strangers, her independence, inner strength, pragmatism, modesty & caution were appreciated by locals, as were her beauty & grace.

Attentus & Ruri could understand each other more than most of other people could understand them.

Both Attentus & Ruri meditated, both were taught Arcane Lessons - Attentus focused mostly on Enchantments, Ruri - on Shadow Magic.

Their romance lasted for a short while.

... but Attentus - in his youth's folly - tried to control her, treated her improperly ... it was far below of what she was worthy of.

... his stupidity & ill manners resulted in arguing, Ruri made steps to break their relationship.

Eventually she even left Narfell area to visit her friend in East ... then after a long time returned - Cursed, Humiliated & in Pain.

When Ruri was away, Attentus missed her ... remembering her angry voice, accusations, feeling emotional pain.

... She taught him good manners that way, as he later told other women.

After Ruri's return, Attentus tried to apologize, to make up for his errors ... but she was not easily swayed by his immature words.

She could not hide her pain from him, however - so he learned eventually - and she needed that despite her independence & pride.

Dear Journal, this all seems hazy, perhaps i made some mistakes as i wrote.

... i need to rest more, then skry again, then i'll be able to write more & elaborate.

-- Yours, Chea Allin, a Witch of Light & a Student of Master Attentus the 1st.

-=- Norwick Ruins' Well. -=-

-=- Menhir Stones. -=-

Skrying for Attentus' past, Part 2.

a Sail.

Dear Journal,

... in a search for Attentus' karma & past, i've sailed south.

... followed energies & intuition past South Gate, past Old Ruins, to the Lake.

... as Nade, my panther familiar, protected me - i meditated, skried & pondered for quite a few of a night-hours.


When Attentus arrived in Norwick, he was short-haired, black-haired, 20-years young mage just after apprenticeship.

He left Waterdeep & his Master, Versutus, searching for Artifacts & Power of Old Narfell Empire.

His tools & goals included Arcane Politics, rising in structures of local Mage Guilds.

At first he was just another unknown person in area attacked by goblins & undead, where many of adventurers died every day ... yet still more arrived to replace them.

Foreign language, foreign customs ... mostly of barbaric nature, no one could appreciate a civilized, well-mannered Sorcerer.

His magick was met with mistrust by locals.

The area was very dangerous at the time, he had to make friends, to trust someone out of neccessity, for survival.

Then he met a woman from Kara-Tur named Ruri Hasegawa, and was enchanted with her looks & grace.

She had black hair to her neck similar to mine, wielded a simple wooden staff, was dressed in black leathers with metal studs, and there was mistrust, shadow, humility & sorrow about her as well.

Both felt like outcast, she was even more suspicious of strangers than he was, and Attentus felt need to be closer to her.

He hired Ruri as a bodyguard, this was his excuse for this reason.

Both fought goblins, defended Norwick & trained in neccessary-in-area combat skills.

Dear Journal, i've witnessed a few of tender scenes as they struggled for survival together.

Once they stood back to back, by the lake i was meditating & skrying tonight, fending off many waves of lesser goblins that surrounded them. Ruri had her staff, Attentus wielded a dagger - his spells were scarce & weak still. Then they limped back to town, both badly wounded.

There was no Maria's Tower by the lake at these times.

Second time, they guarded North Gate, on an elevated platform, with crossbows in hands, as dusk was setting in.

They were waiting for Vampires & other undead assault the town as night sets in.

There were many of adventurers on that platform & some on a lower position, by the gate.

... i felt many feelings of anticipation, of nervousness, feelings of sweat & fear, and caught a tender worry when Ruri glanced at Attentus that was separated from her, by some adventurers.

Thrid time, a glimpse had them both sitting close by the campfire at South Gate, along with other adventurers, chatting & cheering each other.

Ruri caught a mosquito that flew close Attentus' face, and there was more of life-stories-exchanging after that.

... i'll skry more on this campfire next time, Dear Journal ... as i am curious of these tales, as well as of early stories of Attentus & Ruri.

... for now i am weary & tired, and many feelings awakened in me, once again.

-- Yours, Chea Allin, a Witch of Light & a Student of Master Attentus the 1st.

a Cast.