Letter to Attentus.

Dear Journal,

i wrote a letter to Master Attentus, perhaps will have opportunity to present it to him - when we both reincarnate at similar age, when i'll be a little younger than him.

'Master Attentus - i've scried for Your past, Dearest - it is what my eyes saw, unbound by time's chains.

You are the one who was both cursed and blessed, with struggle and power, with torment and love.

You are also the one, who never was too far from my thoughts and from my heart.

Dearest Teacher, i admire your coherence, discipline and will in pursuit of love - my hopes are to be reborn as slightly younger than Your age shall be.

Then we can seek the light together.

-- Chea Allin.'

-- Yours, Chea Allin, a Witch-Student of Master Attentus & a Seeker of Enlightened Energies.




-=- Chea Allin, -=-

-=- ... styled after Midnight, a sorceress who became godess of Magic, Mystra. -=-
-=- Her black staff is a tribute to Khelben 'Blackstaff' Arunsun. -=-

Skrying for Attentus' past, part 6.

Dear Journal,

Attentus and Wethrillina were always together, were busy together.

People often called her 'Lina', for short.

As a part of their romance they united two Arcane Guilds - Spellweaver Keep with Emerald Circle, in which Lina was a member.

He was Spellweaver Leader, and Lina served others as an advisor.

She was wise and philosophical witch related with unseelie, cold fey - she was Distant, Menacing, Seductive and Cold outside - but so hot as a White Star inside, for those she loved or cared for.

She mentioned that scary stone-and-metal fortress that spellweaver keep was should also have a garden, and Attentus loved the idea.

They had some private time for themselves as well.

Other times they enjoyed presence of others, did some politics, involved themselves in arcane and political circles.

This was a romance with great meaning and with great style & company.

They had few friends, closest was 'Klaz' - a spellsword named 'Klazaroth Stormrage', a black sails leader named Deacon Sterr, and a warrior Talgrath Caldassan with his pixie friend.

Wethrillina liked to help tormented people, to solve their 'puzzles' as Attentus called problems that bothered them.

Klaz was a 'complex puzzle' by Lina's words.

Attentus could do anything for her, and when she was lost behind arcane portal - he ran to rescue her disregarding completely all of posiible dangers.

She was rescued.

Other time he admitted to her that he craves power to protect her, and she was impressed.

She understood him without words, and was modest, cautious, eloquent, loving and gentle for him, despite being sinister, dangerous and fascinating witch.

Her manners were without fault, she was elegant and not too formal when compared with Attentus.

Her words and touch of her blue skin were like heaven's caress.

Attentus loved her more and more each day that passed.

Their romance lasted for about a year, then she left him.

Attentus could not accept this at first, but she was gone.

But thanks to this romance worst of his emotional scars were healed, and eventually came to terms with himself and moved on.

-- Yours, Chea Allin, a Witch and a Seeker of Enlightened Energies.

Skrying for Attentus' past, part 5.

Dear Journal,

... i did skry for more of Attentus' past, and i learned as follows.


After his vision and return to society, Attentus was still in deep emotional pain.

Ruri's Heartstone blessed with love protected him from Vrock Demon, who started to avoid Attentus - but torment was still in his heart.

Later Attentus learned that Vrock hid in the Depths below Gypsy Camp's broken earth, where shadows served him.

It took years of compassion practice by Attentus, before the demon was fully defeated by Attentus, however.

Years passed, Attentus fled from life and engaged himself in Arcane Pursuits of Spellweaver Keep, advancing in ranks until he became Overseer, then the Leader, the Keeper.

When new mage appeared in the area, Attentus greeted her or him, showed and explained Spellweaver Keep, and sought romances from attractive witches.

But he couldn't find anyone whom he could love until he met Wethrillina Aeliath.

A witch banished from Norwick by a high-ranked Norwick Militia, a Barbarian named Uthger. They made her leave with swords bared, and torches in hands.

Attentus met her, and they cautiously exchanged their life stories, as time passed, as meetings came.

Both wicked and cautious, they both attempted seduction, tried to entrap other one under them.

Both fell in each other's traps, this romance could not be otherwise.

Attentus was still scared of revealing his emotions to Wethrillina, fearing that he will be left after showing that 'weakness' - but it was him who had to make first step, as he was a male.

Attentus arranged for revoking the banishment, as the Head of the Spellweaver he had that power in Norwick, anyway.

Then during a Norwick Faire, Attentus' elven friend, Evelyth Miliatani, sang a song that encouraged him to let woman have upper hand, to 'let her under his skin, then to begin to make it better'.

He offered his heart to Wethrillina Aeliath and she accepted his love - they started to be a couple, and even kissed each other passionately at fair's end.

Attentus torments were supressed by the new love, powerful, beautiful and true.


... i'll leave the nicer details for next time, Dear Journal.

-- Yours, Chea Allin, a Witch & a Seeker of Enlightened Energies.




-=- Wethrillina Aeliath. -=-

-=- except that being a Witch of the Unseelie Fey, she had a light-blue skin. -=-

-=- ... a heaven's caress. -=-

A Poem - Tribute to Attentus.

Dear Journal,

My chores at Ashald's Park flowered with Arts, for i have a new Poem, written by myself, guided by insights.

'There is moonlight,
There are shadows,
Poison tear,
At meadow.

Many planes,
Many worlds,
So challenging,
Forces there.

Who is hero?
... he who suffers,
Love victorious,
Against Forces.'


it's a tribute to my Master, Attentus.

... i've glimpsed that even when he was aware how heroic he is, it brought him no light.

i doubt this poem's quality is enough considering the torments that Attentus went through, but it's only what i have for now.

... i wish to improve in Arts, Dear Journal.


-- Yours, Chea Allin, a Witch-student of Master Attentus.

Skrying for Attentus' past, part 4.

Dear Journal,

... after a break i did continue to skry & pry, learning about Attentus' & Ruri's tragic romance.

On her trip East, Ruri was cursed by her enemy, she barely fled - or was allowed to flee, to suffer more.

It was a touch spell that landed on her left arm that at first did nothing, then resulted in paralysis & pain.

Attentus with Ruri tried Remove Curse spell, but the Curse was too potent.

Natural medicines didn't work either, and Ruri suffered more & more each day.

It was excruciating experience, the pain that Ruri felt, and Attentus suffered with her.

They had their love rekindled for a while that eased the pain at first, but after a time her personality was affected as well - she could not feel emotions, nor love.

Attentus in his desperation went to a secluded place in the Nars Pass, near a Brigands-built shack, and opened a portal to Hells despite his little skill in Magickal Ways.

Demons of Hells compensated for his little power, and completed the Portal-Opening, taking his invitation as their advantage toward this goal.

Portal to Gray Wastes opened, and Attentus had a glimpse at the Blood War, the War between Demons & Devils waged across the planes.

He saw Devils & Demons killing, blood spilled, screeching echoes as vultures & bird-like Demons fell from the Red Skies on lesser Baatezu.

One of the Bird-Demons, a Vrock detracted from it's course and passed through portal to face Attentus.

Bound by a Pentagram - Binding Rite, Vrock negotiated release terms with Attentus.

Attentus wished to learn about Ruri's curse & about a way to remove it.

The Vrock Demon told him that she was infected with Cursed Slaadi egg, and that she's transforming into extraplanar creature to be tormented in that form for Eternity.

Whether the words were true or not, Demon was released and Attentus ran back to Norwick, searching for Ruri.

Crying, out of breath he met her at the Spellweaver Keep's courtyard and did something that deeply hurt him for many decades of his future life.

He met her, she was transforming already - sinister energy field around her, bloody-sinew-menacing wings sprouting from her arms, her hands ending with claws, and burning-red-eyes looking at him with hatred.

He cried 'i am Sorry!!!' & shot Ruri with a Lightning Bolt spell, to kill her before transformation completes, to save her from fate worse than death.

Then he felt on courtyard's cobblestones, in pain & tears.

His friend Delawen, a mage-girl of Norwick, appeared and tried to comfort him - he yelled at her and fled from her presence. He wished no contact with anyone.

Living in seclusion of Rawlinswood, he was tormented by Vrock Demon who appeared again and again, Attentus' Lightning did nothing to harm him.

Attentus' magical power was just too weak.

He suffered desperation & emotional pain for weeks or more, then had a vision. Ruri appeared before him, dressed in a grey robe, surrounded by light.

She told him that she's still dead and now a 'Keeper of Afterlife', that she was spared from torments by Attentus' sacrifice.

She wanted to say goodbye, and to give him parting gift - a green-metal ring with floral ornamentation, made of her essence, that would protect him magically, and remind him that he always has a place in her heart. Ring was named 'Ruri's Heartstone'.

This was last time Attentus saw Ruri, his pain lessened, and he somewhat recovered after this ordeal.

His hair went Grey from shock & suffering he endured ... but he returned to Norwick & Society, continued his life.

Probably he continued to live only because Ruri wished him to live, even if living for someone is more difficult than dying.

... this concludes this scrying's part, Dear Journal - i do not know when i'll continue.

... i need to think & recollect, to ponder & meditate as well.

... i have Cerulean & Selunite chores too ... but eventually i'll find time.

-- Yours, Chea Allin, a Witch & a Seeker of Enlightened Energies.




-=- Attentus after his hair went Grey. -=-

Skrying for Attentus' past, Part 3.

-=- Campfire. -=-


Dear Journal,

... after a night's sleep, i woke up, went south to skry a campfire i mentioned earlier.

Next to campfire i could not find these energies i suspected ... confused started to ponder, then found answer.

Old Norwick was elsewhere.

After Ostromog's Bugbears destroyed Old Norwick, settlers rebuilt it to north, leaving Old Ruins behind.

Went south, visited a famed Norwick's Well, that during Attentus' times radiated wild magick.

... it turned out that under it were tunnels where one of the three Control Orbs was hidden.

... controlled telepathically these Orbs were keys to controlling Old Narfell's constructs & artifacts that still linger hidden in remote places of Narfell.

... these Orbs were dangerous to use, and radiated with wild magick.


Then i went south to Lake area, and found three Menhir Stones, by which old campfire was set-up.

These Menhirs were nodes in the Ley-Line Network studied by old Spellweaver Mage, Isaac Hamilton.


... cast skrying spell, did a rite and after a while thoughts & visions flooded my Thrid Eye Chakra, so i learned of the past.


Attentus was a village boy who heard voices of long-dead people, other villagers were scared & non-trusting him.

Then a Mage named Versutus visited village, charmed Attentus' parents, then bought the boy for gold - argumenting that boy will learn how to wield his Arcane Gift, so it's no longer a curse, that he'll have better future under Versutus' tutelage.

Attentus followed his new Master to his Tower next to Waterdeep ... where Master made him forget most of his past with a spell.

Training lasted 15 years, and for first 10 he had no contact with other people except for his Master & occasional tower-guests.

First 5 years were most taxing & dull - it was mostly cleaning laboratory & other chores for Master, as he was taught discipline, philosophy, diplomacy, languages, and other mundane abilities as well as meditation, he was prepared to awaken & wield his powers that way.

Then his Magick Awakened, and for the next 5 years he was taught Arcane Theories, spells & rituals, mostly.

Last 5 years were interresting - he interacted with other kids at his age, both boys & girls. They played together, competed, learned together - spent almost all of their free time together.

They used their spells irresponsibly, as with one play - when they charmed each other, and left with feelings hurt.

Attentus had a few of shallow romances during that time, but he didn't feel the True Love until he met Ruri Hasegawa later.

After 15 years of training, he passed a Test designed by his Master, proving he's worthy of the Mage title.

Soon after he left Versutus' Tower in search of Old Narfell Artifacts, to forge his promising future elsewhere.


Ruri Hasegawa came from the Eastern Land of Kara-Tur, from an Island of Kozakura where people had yellowish skin, angled eyes and different culture than the Western World.

She was raised in an Arcane School, where they were taught Shadow Magic & other skills.

One night her School was attacked by a Rival with his soldiers, almost everyone was massacred, buldings & sacred texts burned to the ashes.

Ruri fled West, to Norwick where she tried to mimic local customs.

Wary of strangers, her independence, inner strength, pragmatism, modesty & caution were appreciated by locals, as were her beauty & grace.


Attentus & Ruri could understand each other more than most of other people could understand them.

Both Attentus & Ruri meditated, both were taught Arcane Lessons - Attentus focused mostly on Enchantments, Ruri - on Shadow Magic.


Their romance lasted for a short while.


... but Attentus - in his youth's folly - tried to control her, treated her improperly ... it was far below of what she was worthy of.

... his stupidity & ill manners resulted in arguing, Ruri made steps to break their relationship.

Eventually she even left Narfell area to visit her friend in East ... then after a long time returned - Cursed, Humiliated & in Pain.

When Ruri was away, Attentus missed her ... remembering her angry voice, accusations, feeling emotional pain.

... She taught him good manners that way, as he later told other women.

After Ruri's return, Attentus tried to apologize, to make up for his errors ... but she was not easily swayed by his immature words.

She could not hide her pain from him, however - so he learned eventually - and she needed that despite her independence & pride.


Dear Journal, this all seems hazy, perhaps i made some mistakes as i wrote.

... i need to rest more, then skry again, then i'll be able to write more & elaborate.


-- Yours, Chea Allin, a Witch of Light & a Student of Master Attentus the 1st.




-=- Norwick Ruins' Well. -=-




-=- Menhir Stones. -=-

Skrying for Attentus' past, Part 2.

a Sail.


Dear Journal,

... in a search for Attentus' karma & past, i've sailed south.

... followed energies & intuition past South Gate, past Old Ruins, to the Lake.

... as Nade, my panther familiar, protected me - i meditated, skried & pondered for quite a few of a night-hours.


...


When Attentus arrived in Norwick, he was short-haired, black-haired, 20-years young mage just after apprenticeship.

He left Waterdeep & his Master, Versutus, searching for Artifacts & Power of Old Narfell Empire.

His tools & goals included Arcane Politics, rising in structures of local Mage Guilds.


At first he was just another unknown person in area attacked by goblins & undead, where many of adventurers died every day ... yet still more arrived to replace them.

Foreign language, foreign customs ... mostly of barbaric nature, no one could appreciate a civilized, well-mannered Sorcerer.

His magick was met with mistrust by locals.


The area was very dangerous at the time, he had to make friends, to trust someone out of neccessity, for survival.

Then he met a woman from Kara-Tur named Ruri Hasegawa, and was enchanted with her looks & grace.

She had black hair to her neck similar to mine, wielded a simple wooden staff, was dressed in black leathers with metal studs, and there was mistrust, shadow, humility & sorrow about her as well.

Both felt like outcast, she was even more suspicious of strangers than he was, and Attentus felt need to be closer to her.

He hired Ruri as a bodyguard, this was his excuse for this reason.

Both fought goblins, defended Norwick & trained in neccessary-in-area combat skills.


Dear Journal, i've witnessed a few of tender scenes as they struggled for survival together.

Once they stood back to back, by the lake i was meditating & skrying tonight, fending off many waves of lesser goblins that surrounded them. Ruri had her staff, Attentus wielded a dagger - his spells were scarce & weak still. Then they limped back to town, both badly wounded.

There was no Maria's Tower by the lake at these times.

Second time, they guarded North Gate, on an elevated platform, with crossbows in hands, as dusk was setting in.

They were waiting for Vampires & other undead assault the town as night sets in.

There were many of adventurers on that platform & some on a lower position, by the gate.

... i felt many feelings of anticipation, of nervousness, feelings of sweat & fear, and caught a tender worry when Ruri glanced at Attentus that was separated from her, by some adventurers.

Thrid time, a glimpse had them both sitting close by the campfire at South Gate, along with other adventurers, chatting & cheering each other.

Ruri caught a mosquito that flew close Attentus' face, and there was more of life-stories-exchanging after that.


... i'll skry more on this campfire next time, Dear Journal ... as i am curious of these tales, as well as of early stories of Attentus & Ruri.

... for now i am weary & tired, and many feelings awakened in me, once again.


-- Yours, Chea Allin, a Witch of Light & a Student of Master Attentus the 1st.




a Cast.




Meditating.

Skrying for Attentus' past, Part 1.

- Focus. -


Dear Journal,

As i intended, i did.

i followed my intuition & flow of energies to a place i sensed as important to Attentus.

This was edge of a cliff, near Peltarch.

Cast my TAROT cards with a skrying spell and visions flew to my Thrid Eye Chakra.

i felt strong lingering emotional sorrow and noticed Attentus, a gray haired man that looked about 35 years old, yet felt internally older. He used longevity potion afterall, as i do as well.

He was presenting someone a place where he intended to build a house, using plans he made with his long-gone lover, Wethrillina Aeliath, a Conjurer Witch related with the Unseelie Court of the Fey.

In vision this part of land was hilly, and abadonned ... it was past. Now it's surface flat, animals feast there, and there are nearby homes in neighborhood.

Home would have a nice look at shore below, but it was never built.

When Wethrillina Aeliath left Attentus, he lost motivation to settle.

He tried to love someone else after, but no one was fascinating enough.

i noticed one of a strong wish of his ... he was granted magickal power by Wethrillina Aeliath, to Protect her.

... one of his wishes is to Protect her & her next incarnations ... but i am not sure if he wishes to be with her anymore.

i'll help him to reach well-deserved power once he reincarnates, and let him protect her with his presence alone.

i'll Protect him from losing time on unwanted lovers ... i felt there's someone worthy of him, but probably won't be arriving in his lives soon.

This should help him reincarnate in Narfell, if done right.

... i need more complete wisdom of his life, goals, etc ... before i act, however.

-- Yours, Chea Allin, a Witch of Light & a Student of Master Attentus the 1st.




- Visions. -

Attentus & Visage.

Dear Journal,

i met Visage, Attentus' Raven Familiar, she was flying near Temple of Selûne, Mystra & other gods i serve often in.

She's old, but still looks young & healthy ... we talked for a while.

Attentus died of old age, when his longevity potion failed him - he aged quickly, turning to the very dust in just a few of days after.

Visage felt his life force flowing in, she absorbed it when Attentus died - it seems she will live very long.

She's karmic & magickal connections between Attentus' main incarnation & Narfell, a few of his lesser of these she detected in Narfell Already.

Perhaps his main incarnation will appear in Narfell sooner or later as well, as presence of lesser incarnations is a sign of main incarnation coming in future.

She detected traces of his energies, signs of his magickal & enlightening presence in Narfell, in various places, beings & phenomena.

i'll look for these signs when i can, perhaps he 'is within'.

He was quite ungodly mage, not fearing being placed in 'Wall of the Faithless' too much ... so his main incarnation went there for a while after his death.

He wasn't ungodly to extreme, he respected Mystra most of all other gods.

Now his Religious Wisdom is far greater, probably surpassing mine.

He's still challenging gods, as it's his mind, karma & nature to be independent & responsible that way.

He can skillfully & wisely deal with gods, often serving them to gain karmic advantage over them & their servants.

Visage told me to investigate word 'Immanence', 'Present within' as well, in not only spiritual context.

We agreed to prepare world for his proper return, we have lot to do.

We parted ways, but promised each other to meet again when we can, if we can.

-- Yours, Chea Allin, a Witch-student of Master Attentus.

More about Poisons.

Dear Journal,

I've checked Nade and she seemed fine, for poison's sympoms passed. We went to swamp and she got bitten by 'Stirge' again, and poison returned despite protective spells i cast on her. We returned immediately and i fed her with more such herbs that helped her before.

I'll let her rest for a while, until i find her truly cured.

This reminds me somehow about Attentus, and his first true love, Ruri Hasegawa. At some point she contracted something that was considered magical poison at first and crippled them immensely. She suffered, he tried to help but was next to helpless.

He went to terrible lengths to save her, but in the end he was caught in demonic plot and had to kill her to save her from being turned into terrible creature that would suffers for eternity, or he thought such way. He wished for early death after this but was denied such by her wish. I'll write more later if i can. I'll only mention that she ended as 'keeper of the afterlife' as she said to him when she appeared to him once after her death.

He suffered till end of his years, but there was someone who lessened this pain.

-- Yours, Chea Allin.

Attentus's 'Reincarnation'.

Attentus's Clone, 'reincarnated' in Ferelden.

Dear Journal,

How reincarnation works? I do not know, but i had insights.

Perhaps Attentus lost his old body but his awareness was released and inspired many beings in many different worlds. I know he still speaks to me sometimes. Sometimes this way, othertimes other way.

-- Yours, Chea Allin.

About Attentus.

Dear Journal, it was a while since i learned understood tragic tale of my teacher, Attentus. I'll try to relay few words about his beginnings.

He was trained under his Master, Versutus in a tower near Waterdeep.

Fiveteen years of tutelage, with no memory of his parents, for it was cleared by his Master who wished for no interference from the past. Versutus only mentioned that if not him, Attentus would be simple farmer.

First ten years were dull and lonely, mostly laboratory keeping, lessons with books and solving puzzles in solitude of the tower under his harsh Master.

Last five were more interresting, for it was then when spellcasting lessons started, and interraction with other students (under different Masters) began. They were preparing for a test, that would prove them fully qualified and entitled 'Magi', of their Masters Order. He remembers fondly that time...


'... We were spending almost all of our time together, playing, competing, learning, preparing for a test. It's first time i met friends, and first semblance of love...

... I remember our games of Creativity and Art (as he calls Magic), times such as when we played unresponsible games with charm spells, or other dazes. It's nothing worth advising for, it's too easy to get someone dear hurt...

... Other time we sat by fire at night and showed off cantrips, i won that time. Faces in the fire, appearing, showing different emotions, often similar to the people of the viewer's past. Simple mind trick and enchanting illusions that affect feelings...'


When he passed test, Attentus kept in contact with his Master, but left for Narfell in search of clues about Ancient Empire that was there long ago, and it's lost Magics. He was 'young, stupid and ambitious like this', he says. Attentus found and lost friends and first love there, but that's tale for another time, dear Journal.

-- Yours, Chea Allin.

Message from Attentus.

I heard message from Attentus, my former Master.

'I am not part of Spellweaver anymore, neither are you, Chea'.