A fight for alight.

Dear Journal,

Been a while since I had some time for my 'personal' pursuits.

Among the Cerulean Ranks, they treat me like a doll.

'Do not put yourself into a danger',
'You have great calligraphy',
'It would be a shame if something happened to your beautiful robe',

... and so on.

Reports & papers they give me to fill with corrections are numerous, to put it mildly.

This evening, however, I've set things in motion, or at least attempted to do so.

I've decided to pursue fight against the darkness that inhabits the land, and started with a 'Light' cantrip spell.

My boy-friend, Anheim, told me once:

'With weapons one can defeat terrorists, but with education one can defeat whole terrorism. Those who practice terrorism are often desperate, unable to help their families in their poor plight. So they sacrifice themselves in a fight against those whom they believe to be oppressors, causes of their families poor living'.

I will use my charms and wisdom in this fight, educating and acting as a diplomat.


... my pet-peeve is so called 'cause for greater good', where priests of some so-called 'good deities' educate their followers to not hesistate to sacrifice the meek when the numerous majority needs to prevail, and there's no other way.


I'll try to be like one of more famous of eastern geishas (women companions), who had a smile and kind words even for the meekest and worst.

... I'll not let myself be abused, however.

... We'll see how things will unfold.

-- Yours, Chea Allin, a Witch and a Seeker of Enlightened Energies.


P.S. I'll try to create some enlightening arts. One could question how Art can bring enlightenment... but well, we are Mind and have Bodies... and looking at the Art can change one's Mind State. I've heard that sometimes Mind State changes can completely alter one's perceptions, and in effect - the whole world in which one lives. People should not underestimate meaning of the Arts, I think.

Lights of Kelemvor (Anheim's Tale).

-=- Candle Lake. -=-

There's the difference between faiths of the West and contemplative lore of the Kara-Tur (Far East).

In the West, it's considered that after one's death, after a time in the Fugue Plane, one's soul may depart to it's deity, with help of the deity of death and dead - Kelemvor. Kelemvor promoted that death was a natural part of life and should not be feared as long as it was understood.

I am trying to integrate lessons of East and West, reading and contemplating a lot. I think that after death and a (usually long) time in the one's deity plane, one continues the seemingly endless cycle of deaths and rebirths. Western thought states that one sits at deity's plane for Eternity, but I think that no Heaven or Hell is Eternal. I think and believe that one can escape the cycle of deaths and rebirths by meditating and living accordingly.


My studies led me to compose a Rite to be performed on Kelemvor's holy day... A rite of ascetic meditation, that leads and culminates in putting candles in tiny wooden boats and letting them float in a swampy forest lake.

... long story short, the lights of these candles would guide the minds and souls of the dead to their deities, with the aid of Kelemvor.

But that's not the end - as the lights would ease the suffering of one's mind and soul after the time at their deity's plane ends. The lights would make one suffer less as he or she leaves deity's custody, and - even more importantly - guide one's mind to the lessons about Karma and Samsara, to the lessons about Cause & Effect, to the lessons that include the Cycle of Reincarnations and Rebirths. These lessons include the practices of Mantrayana (way of speaking mantras) and the practice of Meditation.

... I'll start performing the Rite on my own, once I am ready.

-- Anheim, Yogin Warrior of Sun and Moon, and a Student of the Cycle of Deaths & Rebirths.